“...And these children that you spit on as they try to change their worlds, they are immune to your consultations, they're quite aware of what they're going through...”
-David Bowie ['Changes']
-David Bowie ['Changes']
My mother's health has been in really bad shape the last few weeks.
To be honest, I've been really scared.
My dad is really sick this week. Damn kidney stones.
My husband's back was out for a week.
I pulled a muscle in my back and was in so much pain I couldn't get out of bed for 2 days.
We have over 300 dollars in unpaid and over-due bills.
And we will be owing 185 dollars in school tuition next week.
complain.complain.complain.
I am well aware of my situation.Telling me that God is in control is neither comforting nor helpful to me or anyone in my family. We've talked about it. It's a fact.
Today, someone I love stood in front of me for 15 minutes. Screaming at God and asking Him if He even existed.
I know she means well.
Actually, I don't.
But I convince myself that she does.
I love her.
But it's so terribly hard sometimes.
Just because you believe in Him, doesn't mean your life is easy.
Why should we get treated any different? No one owes us anything in this life.
Jeez. I just had to write out my thoughts...
I captured this in New Orleans. I want to go back. Soon? Oh please, soon.
that picture is lovely.
ReplyDeletei really hope you and your loved ones are feeling better soon :)
xo